I drew this back in 2013 and I don't remember what month it was but I clearly recall the feel that went into it. 

"This is my one chance at life and let me start off with this experiment and let's see how this goes. 

If I can achieve this, I can achieve anything else I want!"

I told myself the above statements again and again. I really didn't believe it will happen and I am not even sure whether I will achieve all of those things I mentioned even now but there's one big difference.

I cannot complain anymore. I don't complain anymore.

I used to be the master of complaining. Linkin Park's In The End, especially the part which says, "I tried so hard and got so far, but in the end, it doesn't even matter!" was my anthem. The world was a fucked up place with fucked up people who just want to make fun of me and me being fat and poor. 

But then, in the past 2.5 years I proved it to myself that if I truly give something a shot and do the work, I can achieve what I want. I lost 103 lbs and achieved the six pack I always dreamt of. The world opened up to me and helped me in ways I never imagined.  

So maybe all of my assumptions in the past were incorrect too. I was half hoping that the fitness thing didn't work out because I loved to complain and if it did, it would embark me on a journey of even more responsibility, discipline, and growth but I am so glad I got over that and did what needed to be done.

I keep it simple. Health, wealth, and relationships. I took care of health and the calm confidence I feel after achieving it is surreal. While maintaining a six pack is super difficult and I may not be in my best shape all the time, I'll always know what to do to manipulate my body composition and look how I want. That, is power. That, is awesome. 

Was it worth it to go through all of the drama, self-doubt, discovery, and frustration to figure this out? Fuck yes! It was an investment in a life skill and I highly suggest everyone spend the time to do it for themselves. 

Fitness is awesome. Nutrition is beautiful. Working out is fun. Combining all of them and tailoring them to your own needs is an art and everyone has access to do it. 

And while we're on this topic, this world is awesome and is full of amazing people. Amazing people I have the privilege of knowing personally and online. People generally want to help and see you grow. 

I can't believe I just wrote that. Oh my! How positive I sound especially when I used to sound super negative especially when it came to fitness. Maybe it was a bad environment, incorrect/insufficient advice, lack of knowledge, lack of clarity and many more factors or all of the above but who cares? 

So health? Done! But I still have a lot to figure out when it comes wealth and relationships and I'm I'm going all out telling myself, "Worst case, I'll look like an idiot but at least an idiot who tried." as I did when I started my fitness journey.

Let's see how this goes.